We explore how a 70-day hospital journey, a near-death encounter, and a “stadium of light” experience reframed our approach to surrender, discernment, and purpose.
Holly Porter joins us to share how seventy days in critical care, two intubations, and a chorus of unseen prayers sparked a profound pivot from doing to being. Her story moves from out-of-body moments to a near-death encounter she calls the “stadium of light,” where music felt known, a life review showed only the good, and two clear instructions reframed everything: build a nonprofit called Adventure Bucket Wish and avoid a flashy partnership that would have sped things up for the wrong reasons.
• SHiFT framework grounded in surrender, hope, intuition, faith, transformation
• Out-of-body and near-death experiences shaping purpose
• Life review focused on the good and its lesson
• Guarding your light and choosing faith over fear
• Symbols, promptings, and practical discernment
• Love them where they are as a daily practice
• From doing to being and receiving help
• Nonprofit vision and avoiding misaligned partnerships
• Prayer chains, community support, and humility
Head on over to Amazon to purchase Holly’s newly released book, Near Death Shift: What Dying Taught Me about Life, Business, and Purpose, detailing her harrowing ordeal of being hospitalized for seventy days and the how the near death shift guided her to reframe everything. Purchase it here: https://amzn.to/43leKjy
To download a free chapter of host Sylvia Worsham’s bestselling book, In Faith, I Thrive: Finding Joy Through God’s Masterplan, visit her website at www.sylviaworsham.com
Transcript:
SPEAKER_01:
If you’ve ever struggled with fear, doubt, or worry, and wondering what your true purpose was all about, then this podcast is for you. In this show, your host, Sylvia Warsham, will interview elite experts and ordinary people that have created extraordinary lives. So here’s your host, Sylvia Warsham.
SPEAKER_04:
Hey all bringers, it’s Sylvia Warsham. Welcome to Released Out Review Purpose. And today’s Holly Porter. Does she have a story of transformation to share with you? Let me just put it to you this way. As I read her story, I’ve had the presence of the Holy Spirit from head to toe. Um I felt it. I knew this was spirit-led. This this collaboration is his doing. It’s not Holly’s or my doing. What we have to say to you in this interview will be centered on him and his glory in advancing what he needs you guys to understand. She was someone who spent 70 days in a hospital bed. 70 during 2021. She had been intubated twice, she had sepsis. The doctors didn’t think she was going to survive. And in those 70 days, she had a spiritual transformative awakening. And that is not something that I say lightly, when you start seeing visions and you start seeing that the Holy Spirit is speaking to you, and He’s showing you who you are meant to be and what your need to do from this point on, that is extremely powerful. And it’s not something that most of us go through. But the few, the chosen few that are in this realm are people that have a message to share with the world, and her message is loud and clear that we are here to serve humanity with our gifts and to meet people exactly where they’re at and to love them as much as we can, just as we receive love from God, our Father, we are to give that love to our brothers and sisters in this world. So without further ado, Holly, thank you so much for joining us on the least outreal purpose.
SPEAKER_02:
Well, thanks for having me, Sylvia. I feel like with that introduction, we could be done. You just said so much in those words. That was so powerful. Thank you so much.
SPEAKER_04:
You can thank the boss because those were his words. I am simply his vehicle. And as I was speaking, I again the confirmation of the Holy Spirit from head to two, it’s extremely powerful when he shows up in interviews. And so, Holly, I know you have an amazing story to share. So let’s just dive deep into it.
SPEAKER_02:
Yeah, and feel free to ask me any questions along the way because sometimes I get into talking and there might be a detail that you think needs clarification. So yeah, please do that. Um, well, I was uh gosh, where do I start? I mean, my my really my shift, uh as I would call it, which is my whole framework now around what I help people with, which is surrender, um, hope, intuition, faith, and transformation. So that’s what my shift stands for. And it’s interesting how things can happen to us in the past that we don’t understand why we’re going through. And later you’re like, ah, ah, that’s why I figured that out. And I would say for the last 10 years, so would have been about six before this, because my whole experience was about four years ago. Right now, I was in the hospital right now, four years ago. And I think um it just coming to light, and I was told later, actually in a hypnosis session for my whole experience, that more would be revealed to me when the time is right. And normally that would make me crazy. I want to know everything now, and I’m just that now girl. And I was at such peace with that. I thought, all right, because really, if you think about it, when you get these kinds of experience, if you were to be blasted with all of those memories and all of those processes and everything that you were going through along that the way, it’s overwhelming. I mean, it’s really overwhelming. And so uh I feel really blessed. Um, I went, I mean, for everything that I have been through, it hasn’t been easy. And I was told that, you know, that it would take me longer, and and it has. So I was given a lot of specific messages. Um, going back when to the beginning, I was always super busy. I’ve always had three or four companies at a time. So we’ve had like 11 startup companies, not counting like the little ones I helped my kids start, whatever. And so we always had stuff. It was just busy, busy, busy. And I believe God had to make me get sick so that I would sit still and actually listen to his message because of the busy. And what better way to do that than put you in the hospital for 70 days? I was in a coma many days, sometimes paralyzed, sometimes not. Um, I got COVID at a conference and fought it at home for about a week before I knew intuitively. I had a lot of intuitive gifts before. I mean, really, we all do. We just need to listen. But I had those um before, and I knew I I was dying. And my husband somehow I got gave it to him. We were living in a little tiny fifth will, waiting for our house to close, and we just thought that’d be a fun adventure. Boy, was it. And my husband lived there a lot longer than I did because he never got sick enough to get in the hospital, but he was on oxygen, had blood clots. Uh, we ended up with the Delta version, which I believe is still far worse than any other uh variant of that kind. I was always super healthy, so I never thought I just never got sick. So I didn’t even think I’d get it. So when my sister said, Have you tested? I’m like, no. But I I’ve never been that sick in my whole life. So I get in there, somehow my husband got us driven there safely. Can’t believe that. Um, we were so concerned about giving to anybody because we knew how sick we were. So we were really cautious about that. People were leaving just food outside on our steps, and I don’t remember eating anything. I don’t even remember anything for that whole week because I was sick. Um so the day I got in there was that first day. Um, so I had 69 days in the hospital, was home for about 12 hours, and then had oxygen issues and had to go for my 70th day. Begged him not to keep me. I just ended up staying in the ER for most of that day. Um, but while I was in the hospital, I was in two different hospitals um in the ICU for oh about four weeks the first one, and two the second one, and then about three in med search. Um, and for someone you know that never been sick, they really hadn’t dealt with the hospital and things. I mean, when I’ve had loved ones passed, it’s been in tragedies or at home, things like that. So I just really hadn’t dealt with that experience. Um so there are three things I just want to share. There are out-of-body experiences, there is spiritual transformative experiences, and then there’s near-death experiences. And I had a whole bunch of out-of-body. I I went all back in time most of the time. I have some really creepy stories, some fun stories, some scary stories, uh, some funny stories. Um but then my spiritual one, I thought that was another near-death experience, which I would say you could classify it was still, I was still pretty, pretty sick. Um, that was really the the talk with God, where it was kind of that defining moment. Um, so and then the near-death. Um, so the spiritual actually was last because that’s when I knew I would live. And um it changed everything. I was given some specific instructions, I was seeing a lot of symbolism of things. Um, even later, even now, I get I get things in symbols, and I know exactly what they mean. That’s what’s kind of cool about it, is like, oh, okay, I got that. Or something from my past will show up. Oh, that’s what that was for. Um, yeah, I created, I created, uh, I called it eight means to close the gap to prosperity. That was a program I was creating for a um uh prosperity event that I used to do live, and we would have it in Las Vegas every six months, and I was I never finished the program. Um, and it was so crazy because I ran across my my card that had the eight means, you know, of kind of like a life will, but an eight was my prosperity, which is the infinity sign. And I saw that one day, and I went, oh my gosh, it was like it opened up the whole framework for my shift framework for the book, and I went, Wow, okay, that’s why I didn’t create that because it’s for now. Anyway, so that was kind of a like overview. You now, what would you like to know about any of those? And I’m happy to share the conversation with him. I’m curious about that. What did he show you? Okay, well, I’ll tell you about the spiritual one because to me, that honestly, when you when you get told you’re gonna live, that’s that’s pretty pretty amazing, and that’s a fast story. So my cousin had sent a text to my sisters. So my husband’s my husband, by the way, couldn’t come to the hospital and see me for three and a half weeks because he had COVID, they wouldn’t let him in. Luckily, when I was there, I could have one person every 24 hours. So I have a huge family, but I have two twin sisters just under me, about 17 months, and they just kicked in high gear and they stayed with me. Early on, they realized I I they needed to be there all the time. Um, it’s it’s interesting that I I know I needed them, I know they saved my life by being there. So there, one of them was with me at this particular text when it came through, and I wasn’t doing very well. And she said, I wouldn’t normally share a spiritual experience on a text. My cousin lived in Arizona, we live in Utah, but I know Holly’s not doing well. Will you just read this to her? And so I remember hearing it. Um, the gist of it was she was praying for my husband and I for our well-being, and got surrounded by all these um family member spirits and asked who each of them were, and just basically was sharing that love and support that we had from the other side. And um, I remember all that that’s so sweet was my first kind of thought. Well, I must have taken a turn again, and they put me back in a uh induced coma. And I remember laying there, and at this point, I was about three and a half weeks in to the hospital, and I so it was just it had happened just before my husband got to come see me the first time, by the way. And I remember laying there praying. At this point, my prayers were changing. I was like, you know, this really sucks, and you’re not gonna get me better. I’m suffering. You know, let’s just get me out of here. You know, I was kind of like just that chat, like I’m I’m in it for either way. I was never afraid to die. Or I was like, I’m kind of done fighting, so you know, let’s just be done with this. And then I also was pretty ticked off all of a sudden. I remember my redheaded self just saying, Um, this isn’t fair. Why did Tracy, which was my cousin, why did she get that experience? I’m the one here laying here suffering, and and why didn’t I get that experience? And you know, what usually happens to us when we’re a kid, a child, I mean, I was acting like a little brat who usually comes and puts us in checks, mama, right? Well, my mama passed away about 18 months or so before this, and she had been with me a lot on my right side. She always would come, but she had never spoken with me, but I knew she was there many, many days. And this time she came to my right side, and she I and she spoke to me, and she said, It’s not your time. She says, You need to fight. And when she said the word fight, I had a brother that had passed away quite a few years before, but in a really bad car wreck, left four children because his wife also had passed away for um the year and a half before him in a bad car wreck. So he came and kind of like put his hand on her shoulder, just like we’re here, you know, we’re we’re supporting you. And as soon as she said though that word fight, all in front of my bed, so I’m laying in my bed and all above my bed came all of these, you know, passed on ancestors, and they started chanting, fight, fight, fight. And every time they would say that word, a whole new row would come behind them. So in white was all the people that passed on, and I knew that very clearly. Plus, I recognized them, you know, as my favorite aunt and grandparents, and I mean people I love, and they all looked they all looked young. Like it was really cool. Like they just I knew who they were. I had a grandbaby that had passed away five months before I got in the hospital, um, two days old. She was an adult, but I knew it was her. So she was part of that. But then the people behind them that would come were in street clothes now, so I knew they were living people, and of course I recognized my husband and the children and and my siblings and then friends. And then as they just kept chanting it, more and more and more-I mean, I would say thousands, thousands of people, and it was like just that sign where it’s like, got it, I I need to fight. Okay, I’m gonna live, and that’s the defining moment. You’re gonna live, you’re told you need to fight, all right. And later I realized that all of those people I didn’t know showing me that support, how meant I believe they were all the prayer chains that I was on because we were still kind of shut down, and I, you know, I was a speaker, so I had friends all over the world, and they were hanging on to the posts my sisters would put on social media because that was the only way they knew if I was living or not. And I believe all those all those prayer chains were just all that all that support. So it was just amazing to know here and beyond how much love and support there is for us. And I think when we have bad days, I mean I just think of that, I just visualize that that moment when it’s like I had I had not only loved ones, but I had strangers that really had my back and that wanted me to be here and that needed me. And anyway, so that was that moment.
SPEAKER_03:
The reason why I’m getting very emotional is not last night, the previous night, I could not sleep.
SPEAKER_04:
And I’m not sure why. Because I had played in a tournament and I was exhausted and I should have been able to sleep, and I just I couldn’t. God had me, I was awake and I was watching Heaven is for real the the movie. And I started to get visions from God and I started to block I mean like completely lost it, and I saw people on their knees praying for me when I was in the hospital, and and he was reminding me that the power of prayer is there is no more that that is powerful in the spiritual realm. Um, he hears our prayers, he’s with us, and I just it’s a confirmation to me. What you’re saying to me is is also he’s using you as a messenger to me right now, in that he’s confirming and affirming you were right to think what you thought in the middle of the night, you know. This is this is his message being revealed. Um, you and I have learned how to really discern when he is speaking to us. Can you speak a little bit more about your process of discernment and what God told you directly? We’ve we’ve heard about how what he showed you through the vision of the fight, which is so powerful. What did he tell you? What did he reveal to you?
SPEAKER_02:
Yeah. I for me, I always feel like I had discernment. I mean, discernment, intuition, I mean, there’s lots of words to explain all that. Um, in fact, I remember having a blessing years ago, and it talked about that I had that, that I had that intuition and that power of discernment, and that I needed to listen to it. So it’s interesting you asked that question. No one’s ever asked that before. Good question. Um I think, I mean, for me, I’m gonna bump into the near-death experience because that kind of I feel like puts it, wraps it up into there. So as I’m I traveled in my bed everywhere, like am I out of body? I took my bed with me. Sometimes I took my whole room with me. I have a whole thing to explain that, but it’s too long for the show. You can go go check out my near death podcast that I’m on, it explains all that. But I think I just I always knew that if I didn’t take my bed with me, that I might not come back. I’m I want that. You know, I want my body, and if I get separated, I might not that I’m so obviously I wanted to be here. Um, even while I was going to my near-death experience, I was being carried in my bed down the hospital hallway, and I leaned up to the nurses station and started shaking my finger. I rescind my DNR, I rescind my DNR, which is do not resuscitate. So obviously I knew I was in trouble. And um when I got to the I call it the stadium of light. So there’s lots of details, there’s lots of things that happened along the way, but um the stadium of light, it’s interesting because I’ve had a lot of other people that study near desk tell me people have talked about the stadium. I don’t know what else to call it than that. So picture a football stadium, but way bigger. Um, and I just remember the lights were so bright because I this my senses were so on, which is interesting because my body in my hospital bed, I had lost all senses one way or another. And so to have them so heightened, but to see this brightness of light and uh be able to see through it, it’s really hard to explain because it was so bright you wouldn’t even think you’d be able to open your eyes, it was so bright. But I could see, and uh the fad the stadium was filled with you know hundreds and thousands of people, and uh I could see them, but I I also could see feet, so I knew none of them were on the ground, and then it just the communication, like it was so fast, it was definitely, definitely um telepathic. Um, but like I remember you look at someone, and if you even had a thought before you even thought could get done thinking about it, I mean you already knew it was just like uh I I it just crazy, crazy. Um I was shown a live review. Well, at first then I I say I attended a concert because it was like music from all four sounds and just so angelic. And I think I used to say uh when I would explain it that I didn’t ever hear those songs before, but I knew the words to every song, which could have been part of the telepathic stuff, I don’t know. But I just remember I love to sing and so I’m joining in, and it was just so I could I referred to it as the best concert that I’d ever been to, you know, till I started putting the pieces together after I I later um but in my live review I was I was told some specific things to do, and that is where this kind of i it affects now too. Um I was told first of all, I only saw good in my life review, and um I remember thinking, where’s the bad? I just remember that thought was there, but I didn’t get that answer then, so I must have like not quite finished that thought, and I didn’t have that answer at that time. Um later I did a hypnosis session about it and and it was revealed so much more, which was almost as good. Um but God told me later, by the way, that I I said, Where’s the where’s the bad? And God said, I’m showing you the good because that’s what matters. And I thought, wow, what a god of love. Of course that’s what matters. I mean, I don’t want to treat people bad, but that’s what matters. But one thing I did learn about the bad is that we, you and I and everybody else, are going to have to endure the pain that we cause somebody else. We will have to feel that pain. And at the time I was shared that broke my heart because I had two years of total and complete hell after this experience. And with every relationship almost, my my husband, a few friends, I mean, everything was jeopardized. And the pain I felt, I wished I would have died every day. And and I think that was God’s way of healing my heart, you know, letting me know I I would never wish that on anybody what I went through. But I think it was just that was just part of what I had to know. Um going back to the life review there, I was told two things before I was sent back. And by the way, I was never given the choice to come back. And honestly, when we have people that don’t come back, I think you should know they’re choosing to stay. There’s a reason they’re choosing to stay. Maybe they don’t get a choice and they have to stay, or why would anyone leave that place? Like, I I I would have stayed. I really think if I wouldn’t have been told what to do, I would have stayed, no doubt. Um so I was told two things. I was told to go start a nonprofit and I was given the name Adventure Bucket Wish. Okay, no other instructions than that, just that’s that’s just what you need to do. The second thing was um the day I found out I had COVID, I had pitched a company that I was so excited to partner with on a new venture called Retreat R. And I had the name, but it wasn’t incorporated or anything, but they had a billionaire backer, and I’m thinking, awesome, this is gonna get this out so fast, and I was so excited. I was told, do not partner with that company you pitched too, that that’s not the highest and best thing to do for it. It will take you longer, but don’t do it. Which bummed me out a little, I have to say, because I was you know really excited to do that. So I came and then I and then I was back, and I was I was back in my body, and just just unraveling all that and trying to figure out all those things. Um some of the symbols I saw were later because okay, when I came back, my sister um I had to communicate with an alphabet page that you’d have to point to because I was intubated, and it would take a long time, long time to come out with one word sometimes. I’d be so exhausted because I hardly had any any strength. And uh, but when I came out of the hospital, I started spelling K I D. And my sister says, Oh, do you want me to tell your kids something? And she knew that wasn’t it, and I kept going N A P and she said, you know, you were doing better, you spelled kidnap. I’m like ready to throw up in the garbage can because I’m like, what happened? I ran an errand because I was doing better. And what happened while I was gone? Why, why are you saying you were kidnapped? Anyway, right when I communicated that to her, the doctor and the nurse walked in to exhibit me for the first time, and and and she said you could talk, not very well, but you had a lot to say. And there were still spirits in my room, and realized quickly as she’s opening doors and drawers and cupboards, you know, that no one’s there, that I was the only one that could see them. There must have been some kind of fear of some sort. I why I felt kidnapped, I did not know until later. I I have figured some of that out. And it’s interesting how God gives us just those drips of things, and maybe I’m not as smart as most, so I have to it takes me longer to process them. I don’t know. But um, it took those two years of going through all that to realize why I felt kidnapped, and even just this year, the fourth year later, I just put some pieces together, and um, and it was kind of scary because I had an entity involved in in all of it, and um it’s just so crazy how the story continues, even though the experience already happened, my mind doesn’t remember everything. And when I get another experience and I learn something, I just look at it as such a blessing, and I’m so grateful I got part, I feel like it’s the rest of the story, but it’s still unfolding. And I knew immediately I I had two books that I needed to write, and I already had a whole bunch of books. Most of them, about half of what I’ve done, have been like compilations, just a chapter in somebody else’s book. But I I wasn’t interested in really writing any more books, and I knew I had two. I have one coming out in a week that’s uh on this story and the lessons from it, and I know the other one is about the philanthropy work that’s coming out of all of it, and so it’s just this story continues to unfold, and I love that.
SPEAKER_04:
I just what is the name of the one coming out in in a couple of days?
SPEAKER_02:
Yeah, it’s called Near Death Shift, What Dying Taught Me About Life, Business, and Purpose.
SPEAKER_04:
Wow. And so the entity, can you reveal something about the entity on the podcast? Would you feel so um oh yeah, yeah.
SPEAKER_02:
I I I totally, it’s just such a long story. Um, let me sum it up. So, two years after by what I call two years of hell, I was not in a good place for that time. I cried every day, and I’m not a crier. It was just like, why did you save me to put me through this? Like, I don’t understand. Why, you know, meanwhile, four months later, I’m still super sick. All the long COVID symptoms came for a year and a half. I could hardly work. Um, there was all this stuff going on, and I decided to have I’m I’m certified for hypnosis, and so I know the process. I called my coach and I said, Hey, would you do uh hypnosis specifically on my near-death experience? There’s some gaps to it that I feel like I’m missing. I have all the rest from the outer body, I know the spiritual one, I know, but the near death, there’s some gaps. Sure. So we do that, and so I’ll just so that’s where I didn’t end up in the stadium of light until the end. So it was like I didn’t remember this part of the story. I went to this place called the in-between. There was an entity there. Um, he was able to talk to the entity, his name was Darby. Um, he didn’t have any connection to me that I know of right now. Um, but he wanted my light. He can’t have the light, he couldn’t go to the light. So in the in-between, the dark was on the right side, the light was on the left side, and we were just in this weird space, and weird matter was floating around, weird colors that, you know, just just weird. Even though there was matter floating around in the light, it was like, you know, pink hues and yellow hues and white hues, and this was like cobalt blue and silver and gray and black, and you know, it was just totally different. Um, but they would all form the matter would all form hearts and it would float to the light. And I remember thinking, or to the left, which was the light, and I just remember thinking, even in the dark, we’re attracted to the light. I just remember how all these thoughts during this going on. Um, Darby, anyway, he he, I believe, was who why I felt kidnapped. He came when I was super vulnerable in my near-death experience. And I think when before I got to the stadium of light, there was this long pause of what I remembered. I think this is where he took me was the in-between. The stadium of light was where I ended up after. Um and of course that would make me feel kidnapped. And so that was a little he didn’t feel evil to me. He he felt dark, but not like evil. I think he just literally was like, if I can get somebody’s light, I’m gonna take it.
SPEAKER_04:
You know, so yeah, it’s the choices. Like, yeah, what’s coming to me as you’re speaking is this is where faith steps in. When you believe and you trust the Lord and you stay focused on Him, some of these choices that will come at us that question that light, that question that faith, you have to just put your shield of faith forward so that the pharaohs of the evil one do not penetrate you or your light. You gotta guard your light and with the sword of his word, fight back, fight through the darkness to get to the side of light. This is what has been like a theme that’s been coming through for me as well, because like I told you, uh, only for two days I was upset with him, but then um I came back because I can’t be away from God or his light for many days. I just I’m very attracted to his light, and I’ve always the message he’s had for me as well has been you are a light warrior, you gotta fight for that light, you gotta fight, and you gotta show others how to fight for that light, they will have choices and thoughts that are going to overwhelm them and try to take them away from their light, and your role is to guide them out of there because you’ve been there yourself, and it sounds like you’ve been in that space as well, and so now how are you guiding? People to their light when you find that they’ve fallen trapped into these spaces.
SPEAKER_02:
Yeah. Well, it’s okay. So I hear it takes 10 years to unravel everything I went through for people, and I thought, wow, that’s too long for me. It’s been four. I I feel like things are still unraveling about it. Um, I know I’m on the right track. I mean, I it has taken me longer with things. So I feel like just by example, it’s it’s showing, okay, this is my story and this is what I did, then what am I doing? It’s like it’s like get out of the doing and get in the being. That makes sense. And it’s just sitting back and saying, okay, today I feel like crap. Um, how how am I gonna get my stuff done? Like it’s that surrender we were talking to about before the show. It really is just it’s surrendering everything and just saying, okay, this is beyond me and what I’m capable of. I’m a strong person and I’ll fight and I can do this, but can I have some help? And a lot of times, if you think about it, we get so stubborn sometimes about thinking we have to be the ones to do everything, and we don’t. There’s I mean, I couldn’t even wipe my own butt in the hospital. Come on, I could do nothing for myself. And so talk about full surrender. I’m just saying sometimes you just have when the shoe’s on the other foot, you’re depriving that person of serving you if you’re not surrendering and letting them serve you.
SPEAKER_04:
The images have to come into my mind, and he’s hilarious because he knows what I need to see in order for that message to come through very, very clearly. Don’t you find that to be true of yourself, Kolly? Like he knows us so well because he created us. So he knows what visions we need to see and what pain we need to go through to finally learn the lesson we’re meant to learn. And that is one, surrender. We are not in control. And those that think we are in control, you don’t want to go through what Holly and I went through to understand that concept. So take it from us that have been in those spaces of immense pain, quit being so foolish. And this is actually coming from scripture, from one of like Paul’s letters, I think to the Galatians. It’s like, why are you being foolish and looking to your past for your answers? That’s not where your answers are gonna come from. Your answer is gonna come from the surrender piece to be to accept that you’ve got a mission, you’ve got a purpose that you need to live out. The whole gist of life is discovering that purpose and then living it every single day and surrendering to that purpose every single day. Because what we receive, it’s not based on what we’re doing, yeah. It’s based on a a creator that loves us so much, that gives us. It’s out of that abundance that we receive that we give to humanity. We have all received gifts, we’re all gifted. Some of us don’t know what those gifts are because they’re too busy doing. Yeah, so the big the big thing here is quit doing. The the achievements are not what makes us significant, and the significance doesn’t come from the outside world, it comes from within, it comes from him. He’s the only one that can give you that significance. That worth is already yours just for being his kid. You are his child, you’re his creation, and you’re here for a very specific divine purpose that only you can fulfill. No one else can do it, because that’s how unique and special you are to him, and that’s the piece that I didn’t realize for the longest time. That that was recently the significance piece because to me, I sought significance from others forever, Holly. God, that was the hardest one for me. And he was like, I’m going to strip you away of everything. Like everything you’ve built, I’m gonna take away because you don’t, you don’t, you’re not listening to me. And so the vision that he gave me right now as you were speaking was my my 70-year-old mother helping me walk to the terminal because when my near-death um shifts or my spiritual awakening happened in Houston, Texas, I’m not from Houston. I flew there during Easter weekend, and that’s when I had my medical complication and my second chance at life. So the three miracles and 72-hour story that I have on my website and in my book, In Faith I Thrive, Finding Joy Through God’s Master Plan. That’s my free chapter for those that want to read that. Um, but the vision was allow others to help you because they’re there to help you and support you. God is sending them to you for a reason. You need to learn these lessons now. Do not go through what we went through. That some of us don’t make it out. You know, like if you don’t listen to his promptings and you don’t listen when he’s speaking to you, you you you’ll likely die in some of these situations because in my case, I listened when he said lean forward and you’ll be able to breathe. When I was jolted out of bed in the middle of the night in a hospital room, I had just flown from South Texas to Houston to meet my boyfriend, who then became my second husband. But I had two pulmonary embolisms that were passing through my heart that were about to stop my heart. Had I not listened to the Holy Spirit’s prompting to lean forward to breathe and laid back down, I likely would have died. Wow, it’s that simple. And the doctors explained it to me. The science was clear, like I would have died. They were large, and I had no business passing them and living, is what the doctors, in essence, told me in the hospital. So to bring him back to the interview, there’s just be aware of his promptings, have a relationship with him, invite him in to your everyday. So when we talk about surrender, then you’re dying. Only when you’re dying. Although that’s how Holly and I learned the concept of surrender, the first go-around. Now I have to die to live, is what I say. Trust us. This is not fun to go through this because it it your body gets humbled in such a way physically, emotionally, spiritually, mentally. It’s it’s it’s quite the journey. Let trust us on this. And it’s not an easy journey. So um, if you’re one of us, learn from us directly.
SPEAKER_03:
Don’t put your hand on the stove to get burnt, please.
SPEAKER_04:
Yeah, so um lots, words of encouragement you think God wants you to share with us today, holly.
SPEAKER_02:
Oh, I got the biggest. Um one of my messages was that I got I actually got later, the two years later, was love and where they’re at. And that, if I would have remembered from the beginning, I wouldn’t have gone through those two years. And I needed those lessons for those two years for all the philanthropy work I’m doing in the future that I know has to happen. I had to see how horrible this system was, and I had to go through and cry every day to see love and where they’re at takes away that judgment. And I know we all have somebody who who really probably bothers us. Do you know? That’s probably the person you should serve the most. As hard as it is, that will take you out, that will bring you to surrender faster than anything I know, and just love on them no matter what. Just love them no matter what they’re doing, where how they’re living, it’s not our place to judge that. So that’s the message I would leave.
SPEAKER_04:
Yeah, another vision came through clearly with those words, and it’s me on my knees recently. And um and it got comes back to 2023 when he showed me what Satan was doing in my marriage, and why I just couldn’t seem to get out of this cycle in my marriage. And he said, I need you to in recent months the the word submission has been very present in in me for my marriage, and I have found a letter that a card I had given my husband years ago in 2017.
SPEAKER_03:
And when I first read it, it I couldn’t get through it, Holly.
SPEAKER_04:
It just it was too painful, and I remember hearing a voice that said, keep it, don’t burn it, because my initial ego desire was to burn it. I didn’t want to deal with it, I didn’t want to be that person, right?
SPEAKER_03:
And God had other plans for me, so he said, just keep it, it’s gonna make sense later.
SPEAKER_04:
And so I did, I kept it in my drawers, and then the week before, this is in September of this year, I had gifted my husband for our wedding anniversary for our 12th, a trip to Nashville, Tennessee, and we’re in Texas, we live in Austin, and um I was cleaning out doors, he was out of town, and I was gonna confess to him how I had dishonored and disrespected him throughout our 12 years of marriage as a part of um um the submission piece, and um that God had me on this journey, right, to to kind of reconcile me and bring me full circle. And that I was going to talk to him that week, and then he got an assignment. He’s a very he’s got an important role in this company, he’s um director of electrical engineering, but he’s someone that is so uniquely gifted, he is very intelligent, but beyond like the intelligence, like I wish I had that intelligence, right? kind of guy, and he solved problems for these big companies, and so they were bringing him onto a project because they were relying on him to solve this major problem. And for the first time in my marriage, I didn’t run to tell him what God had shown me. I kept it to myself because that’s what I felt I needed to do, because I was loving, I was putting him before my own needs, like I was submitting to the Lord first and his needs and his timing, and in that week I was cleaning out drawers, and here comes that letter. And I opened it up and I read it, and everything came full circle. All those pieces suddenly made sense, and I remember like dropping to my knees completely humble in full surrender and begging God to forgive me for hurting his son with my words, with my judgment, with my thoughts, even I had I had dishonored and disrespected God first through that, and I I I owed him that because see in December of 2011, before my medical journey, before Donnie was there with me, um I was sitting having coffee next to my Christmas tree, and God said, Donnie, here’s your gift from me. So, and he showed himself to us in the ICU. He he said, You’re this is my will for you guys to be married. You need to stay in my will, and I need you to feel the pain you put him through. And when I read that letter and I understood the pain I put my husband through, it all made sense. So you sharing that story with me now is again, once again, affirming why we go through these chapters is because it’s the only way we will understand our role in our relationships with others and how we hurt other people and how we really need to lead with love. That love does not keep a record of wrongs, it is not self-seeking, it it rejoices in the truth. You don’t want it’s hard to hear, you know, and we’re here to meet and to love people the way that we have received love from him, and it’s with mercy and grace and kindness, especially kindness. So I I want to thank you, Holly, for your beautiful story and for your beautiful light, because what this world needs it, uh, and for the listeners of release that reveal purpose, remember Matthew 5.14 to always be the light.
SPEAKER_03:
Be that beautiful light that you carry inside of you.
SPEAKER_04:
Step into it with all of your heart, with all of your faith. Stay focused on him, keep him in front and center in everything you do, and you will you will have the most beautiful life despite the trials and tribulations that you face.
SPEAKER_03:
Because you will feel love unlike any love you’ll feel here on earth. I love you all. Stay blessed. Thank you, Holly, once again. Have a beautiful week.
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