What has God revealed to you—in silence, scripture, or struggle?
In this episode, I share what was uncovered in my war room: the resentment, pride, and pain I was still holding—and the call to finally let go.
If you’re wrestling with control or struggling to hear God, this one’s for you.
Let’s talk surrender, repentance, and what it means to walk blameless before the Lord.
Transcript:
Speaker 1:
If you’ve ever struggled with fear, doubt or worry and wondering what your true purpose was all about, then this podcast is for you. In this show, your host, sylvia Worsham, will interview elite experts and ordinary people that have created extraordinary lives. So here’s your host, sylvia Worsham.
Speaker 2:
Hey, lightbringers, it’s Sylvia Worsham. Welcome to Released Out Revealed Purpose. In this episode we’re going to be talking about what God has revealed to you through his word, and it is something that has been pressing in my heart for the last couple of days. As most of you know, I’m in the process, difficult process, of shedding my old identity, my old ways of being, my old heart and submitting to my marriage and to my husband the way I’ve submitted to the Lord. And this process has really tested me immensely and I find myself at some days asking God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you putting me through all these tests? What am I gaining from this? And at times, what has been revealed to me in the silence, in his silence, has been look at your scripture on your walls.
Speaker 2:
And as, because you know, I’ve watched the movie the War Room, the War Room is a movie by the Kendrick brothers. They were also the ones that created the Love Dare book and they are international national speakers, very well-known producers of major Christian films, and one of them is the War Room and in it the main character, clara, is an older lady who teaches a young wife who is 16 years into her marriage, and it is very tumultuous and they’re fighting and they have a 10-year-old daughter. All this hit very home to me because I have a 10 year old daughter and my husband and I, although I love him very much, are fighting a lot and because of our fighting, our daughter ended up having a lot of anxiety and we’re now in the process of me being told by God you’ve got to submit. I started four weeks ago and then this past weekend I blew up and it just showed me and revealed to me the state of my heart. And there is a scene in the war room that Clara, the older lady, is asking the wife hey, what are your grievances towards your husband? And she had been writing like three pages of grievances. And I remember just sitting a couple of days ago and writing down all my grievances I had towards my husband and in that that scene Clara’s saying she goes, when you read through it, the young wife tells her when you read through it, you’ll see and you’ll understand. She said I’m not planning on it. And then she asked her point blank like who is the owner of your heart? And I asked myself the same question and the answer is I’m the owner of my heart. I haven’t fully given it to the Lord and, as Clara explains very poignantly, it’s like only one person can sit in the throne of your heart, and that’s got to be Christ. You’ve got to let go.
Speaker 2:
And this morning I sat there in my war room with my cup of coffee and in the silence I started to get visions and see, this is the way that God communicates with me as well. He doesn’t just send messengers in the form of friends, he sends me visions and he sends me messages this way. And one vision came very clearly through initially, and that was a passion of the Christ. I had never watched the movie up until Easter of this year. If you can imagine that, I just couldn’t bring myself to see someone I love so dearly, christ, go through so much pain. But I needed to, because this is the part of the process that he wanted me to show me. You want to be like me. You want own up and continue your walk in the will of God, even though at times you feel, like I felt prior to the crucifixion, forsaken. Why have you forsaken me, god? Why? And he’s praying and he doesn’t want to do it. He doesn’t want to do the crucifixion, but then, somewhere along the way he gets the power to do it, the inner power, the inner conviction to follow the will of his father. And I want that. I want to walk blameless and without sin.
Speaker 2:
The other prompting that came very quickly through my mind was look at the scripture you have in your war room, because I have a war room. The war room is like a closet. I’ve cleaned out half of it and put up scripture and I’ve talked to God and I’ve knelt and I have asked him for his forgiveness. The prompting king read your scripture. The answer is there. So I’m going to read to you some of the scripture I have in my war room. The first one is from Job 11, 13 through 15. Yet if you devote your heart to him and stretch out your hands to him, if you put away the sin that is in your hand and allow no evil to dwell in your tent, then, free of fault, you will lift up your face, you will stand firm and without fear. So you see that the lines that kept like popping up from this verse were put away the sin that is in your hand and allow no evil to dwell in your tent.
Speaker 2:
And that line specifically really spoke to me because God was saying look at the word and look what I’m revealing to you. And what it revealed to me was that I was holding on to evil. I was holding on to anger and resentment towards my husband. I did keep a record of his wrongs, even though I kept telling him I wasn’t. That was false. I was a liar. I lied to him. I need to come clean In order for me to be blameless in Christ and to show my God light. I must humbly submit and I must humbly acknowledge and accept that I have lied about the resentment and anger I’ve held into my heart. The only way that I’m going to allow anyone else is to let go, to let go and to come clean. Just like the 12 steps, one of the steps is to come clean and to ask for forgiveness. You’re asking for repentance. Frankly, I don’t expect the forgiveness. I’m repenting because to me, the value of repentance is to free myself from the evil that has dwelled in my tent. So this is one of the verses that really spoke to me.
Speaker 2:
The other one is from James 1, 19 through 21, and it reads my dear brothers and sisters, take note of this. Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires. Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word planted in you which can save you. Now, the verse there, humbly accept the word planted in you which can save you really spoke volumes to me. There’s a lot in scripture that says be humble, be kind, be gentle, humbly accept. There’s that word again acceptance, accept the word planted in you which can save you.
Speaker 2:
Well, over the weekend, my husband and I, in our fight, when we repaired the fight, he told me. He said, sylvia, you don’t accept yourself, you don’t accept that you have anxiety and you don’t accept that you have OCD and you don’t accept that you have ADHD. You always fight me on it and at first I denied it. But the truth is, the actual truth is that he’s right. I haven’t accepted it. When I accept who I am, when I call it out freely and I go and I ask for forgiveness from those I have hurt with my words, with my actions, when I go and I repent, not just to God but to them, true repentance I will be free and I will be blameless and I’ll be able to walk without sin, just like Job said.
Speaker 2:
There’s another verse that really spoke to me too. That was up in my war room, and it comes from Ephesians 6, 11 through 17. And it reads stand firm, then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place and with your feet filled with readiness. It comes from the gospel of peace in place, and with your feet filled with readiness, it comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil. One Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the spirit, which is the word of God. Well, here, the breastplate of righteousness really spoke to me, and it was like super, highlighted this morning, because where’s the breastplate? The heart spoke to me and it was like super, highlighted this morning, because where’s the breastplate? The heart? The heart must be right.
Speaker 2:
How do you make a heart right? You make it by confessing your sin. What is your sin? Think about it. Who have you hurt? Do you carry anger and resentment in your heart? See, only one person can hold your heart, can sit on the throne of your heart, and that’s Christ. He cannot transform you until you let go. Why are you holding on to pride, little one? Why are you holding on to anger and resentment? How has that worked out for you? Think of all the things that you’re holding on to tightly, that God is saying to you today Let go, sweetheart, let me in, let me give you the joy. The joy according to me, the Lord, the joy that comes from the freedom, true freedom, of the shackles of the cage you put yourself in. What are you guilting yourself with? What are you shaming yourself with? That is what’s keeping you captive in your circumstances, and God is saying to you today through his word let go and let me. You want to be like me. You must forgive.
Speaker 2:
Look at what Christ did the day he was crucified. I just want you guys to analyze this for a moment. He went through agonizing pain. He shed so much blood. I was, I was watching the film and it was the first time I had ever watched the passion of the christ. I just couldn’t bring myself to see it for a long time. I didn’t want to see him suffer, but I needed to Because, you see, he does understand what we go through.
Speaker 2:
He does understand the emotions of feeling sometimes like God has forsaken us, because he himself felt it. Judas betrayed him, someone in his discipleship, someone he had mentored and been a teacher to and had grown to love, betrayed him for money, for greed. And then you had Simon Peter, who was his most pressured disciple, and he, he denied him three times before he got crucified. Three times. And yet Christ, he forgave. He forgave them willingly and asked his Father, god, to please forgive them for they not know what they do.
Speaker 2:
So you know what I did as I sat there in silence in my war room today, I made a list of all the people I have hurt through my actions and my words. And you know what I plan on doing as I sit in this silence and sit facing the truth, the truth, remember. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist. What is the truth? Be honest with yourself about the truth. Be honest with yourself about the truth.
Speaker 2:
Did you hurt someone? Did you wound them, knowing full well what that would do to them? What are you going to do? So now you need to decide what you are willing to do with the truth. What I’m willing to do is I’m willing to go step by step with each person on that list and ask for repentance and ask for forgiveness. But the value of repentance is just humbly submitting to the Lord to become blameless in his eyes. I’m Sylvia Worsham. Thank you so much for tuning in to today’s coaching on what has God revealed to you through his word. Have a wonderful week, stay safe. Love y’all. Bye now.
Speaker 1:
So that’s it for today’s episode of Release Doubt Reveal Purpose. Head on over to iTunes or wherever you listen and subscribe to the show. One lucky listener every single week who posts a review on iTunes will win a chance in the grand prize drawing to win a $25,000 private VIP day with Sylvia Worsham herself. Be sure to head on over to sylviaworsham.com and pick up a free copy of Sylvia’s gift and join us on the next episode.